February 2012
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January 2012
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May 2010
2 posts
Doing the impossible...
I wish I could do the impossible. I just want to stop time and cling to this moment. I know its for the best, but why now?
We are having to put my dog to sleep tomorrow.
I have had my dog since I was 2 years old. He is old, blind, and deaf. I think the one thing that breaks my heart even more then putting him down is that we aren’t going to tell Gracie. She has a solo in her choir...
Wedding :)
My best friend is getting married. She moved her ‘Big Day’ so I could be there before I move. She is also deciding who will be her maid of honor… it might be me…
I’m excited… but still iffy about it all. I just pray she knows what she is doing with her life :p
April 2010
2 posts
Today....
Today…
My best friend ran away.
She called me.
Told me she was safe.
She told me she was a big girl.
She said that she was able to make her own decisions.
I cooked dinner for my ‘other family’
When I took it over her/my mother gave me hug.
She said with tears in her eyes.
“All I can do is give her to God. She was His daughter before she was ever mine”
...
I love life! I take it for granted a lot, but...
I ready for the good differentness.
lol
March 2010
5 posts
Today was a terrible day… But randomly a kid in the hallway just gave me a hug and said “Cheer up! It might seem like everything is going wrong at the moment, but remember that God loves you and thats the only thing that matters”
Thanks random kid… you made my day :)
Helen Keller?
I realized today that my dog is the dog version of Helen Keller…
Its so heart braking watching my poor little puppy (when I say puppy I mean he is 14 years old) get lost in the middle of the kitchen. I love him so much and its so sad to see a little bit of my childhood fade away :(
Here Comes Goodbye
Nine weeks;; Sixty two days;; One thousand four hundred ninety six hours;;
Today marks the 9 weeks before I leave Arkansas forever.
…
I don’t want to say goodbye.
I don’t want to leave everything and everybody behind.
I don’t want have my senior year at some other school.
…
But I guess its not about what I want.
Its about what God wants from me.
…
...
To You:
Yes you! You read the title right.
I have officially started Tumblr stalking you…
You can run…(unless you have a pulled muscle), and you can hide… but I will always find you. mahahah lol
Ah. I will post more now that I’m not super busy.
<3 Maddie Fay
P.S Emily you make my heart happy :]
February 2010
3 posts
I was just listening to something wonderful!
lauren-8d:
I was listening to two of the songs from our first year of youth chior. Beautiful One/Famous One with Caitlin Wyeth soloing and then No One Like You with Drew Clark soloing and Heather Blair saying “Here we go now!” It was great! It made it even better when I looked in the cover part of the CD case and there were pictures of youth and adults from youth chior and the worship chior that...
welcome.to.my.life
During this stange in life I wish I was someone else. I long to be someone else. Maybe because I dislike who and what I am, but maybe its because I look around and see that everyone is different and happy… but I’m not. Maybe if I could walk around in their shoes and see what it feels like. After late conversations with a good friend Liz, I found out that what I wanted the most, almost everyone in...
guess who just joined the bandwagon?!
I did :) Ask me anything at http://www.formspring.me/MaddieFay
December 2009
1 post
And tomorrow i start The Last Song.
amykinns:
Then probably The Guardian, followed by The Wedding. Then Maybe Nights in Rodanthe, and The Rescuer. True Believer and At First Sight will follow those. Leaving Message in a Bottle for last.
I will read all of his books in time. This i promise you.
Oh my word! I love that book. I started and finished it this week. Good luck on trying to put the book down lol
November 2009
1 post
HAPPY [early] BIRTHDAY!
Emily Phillips <3 I miss you tons
October 2009
1 post
Oh my goodness!
The Life Way Christian Lady Warriors Volleyball Team is the Arkansas Association of Christian Schools Central District Champions! At the moment we are 5-1 in our district, but within all our games we are 9-1. woot.
We also go to a Christian school state tournament in two weeks! YAY
September 2009
1 post
I quite proud of this College Admission Essay :D
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I feel as if I'm a failure at life
First I was told that I was going to be a bench warming for my Varisty team in Volleyball. Then I get the news that I didn’t make the basketball team… I feel so alone a lost. School is slowly draining me, I wish people cared!!!! lol
August 2009
7 posts
joshochos:
I will follow you into the dark - Death...
ickyy!
I have to go back to school tomorrow :p The first 2 day were ok. Only being in 3 classes with my bff is kinda hard. Plus starting first period monday morning in math class is not what I was looking forward to, but oh well life goes on. I made the vball team and practise started Thursday. I never thought I was going to be so sore and bruised by the 3rd day of vball, but Coach Hesse proved me wrong...
School....
School starts tomorrow… I’m not looking forward to this year at all. But good new, we had volley ball tryouts and I’m pretty sure I made it :D
“People often change for two reasons: either you’ve learned enough that you want...”
– Unknown (via thresca)
Today I have watched my world fall apart piece by...
Today…
I got a message that my best friend in TX ruptured her ACL and tore her MCL.
Bad News… uggg
Then I got an Email saying we now have a volleyball coach and we will have a team.
GREAT NEWS… it helped me cope with being away from Emily.
After that news I had to tell my best friend here in AR that I couldn’t hangout with her the day before school started because...
July 2009
1 post
Sad day :(
I just got the news that my 2 super amzing best friends are not coming back to school next year :( sad day.
But good new is that I visited a new church today and I really really liked it :D Oh Happy Day <3
June 2009
8 posts
I hate when people cry...
especially you. Why don’t you see that she is just playing with your heart? It kills me to see you get hurt, but the thing that hurts the most is that your such a stupid boy that you can’t see past her beauty. I worry about you darling… I hope that you will soon see the real person she is before she breaks your heart.
It is offical!
I have seriously lost my social life. I like my job, but at the same time I guess I don’t enjoyed having to take care of the 2 little braty monkeys my boss calls her children. I’m counting down the days intil I leave for Atlanta for a whole week. Only 6 more!
Work...
is slowly killing my soul, little by little uggg
Benjamin Webb!!!
Child you just made my day :D… I just hope I don’t regret it tomorrow lol!
All I need is
to curl up in your arms and cry
stop calling.
(via maegane)
Babe I have no idea what is going on, but I want you to know that I love you. And if you need anything, just call me. My number is 479-586-5523. It was great seeing you sunday, I might be in town tomorrow. We can meet up and hang. Call or text.
Love ya!!
Boys are Stupid
there is nothing more to that statement. Its the truth and there is no way to avoid it. AHHHH you make me soooo mad, why her, why now. I pray God gives me strength… so that it will hurt when I slap you in the face next time I see you.
Jesus loves you!
Senior Sunday
So yesterday I visited my old church. I was already really pumped to be there, but the day got better when someone told me it was senior Sunday. The service started and worship was absolutely incredible, but then the time came for the seniors. I sat there in the old worn down church pew and watched one by one all the seniors walk across that stage. I couldn’t help but think of all the...
May 2009
3 posts
4 hours and 17 minutes
lauren-8d:
maddiefay:
left of my sophomore year of high school!!! One more final and then off to Texas I go :D
PS: The Mansfields will be a New Hope this sunday!!!! AHHHHHH
I just got REALLY excited! :)
Me 2!!!! You have no idea how happy I am about coming down and seeing everyone
4 hours and 17 minutes
left of my sophomore year of high school!!! One more final and then off to Texas I go :D
PS: The Mansfields will be a New Hope this sunday!!!! AHHHHHH
I love spontaniosly random phone calls from old friends <3
April 2009
9 posts
WHY?!
I’m falling for you…. but why now? I only have a year left in arkansas… why now?!
p.s This sucks!!!
Update!
So I’m pretty sure that Dad has a job back in Ceder Park at Dell. So pretty much he leaving in almost 2 weeks for 6-9 months. I have to stay here in Arkansas because of the Nanny job that I will have this summer :(
PS: We could move back next year or so… idk yet
Home is were the heart is!
Soooo guess what? My dad might be getting a job back in Leader!!!! We don’t know if they will offer it to him yet, and the job will only last 6 months. But its better then living here with no job. We really need prayer that the right decision will be made about all of this. But if all goes well, we might be moving back to Texas :D
PS: My new cell number is (1479)586-5534 call or text...
Sweet 16?!
Dude… I feel old, kinda, sorta, but not really.
Yay for turning sixteen in 19 mins!
I really want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me out this week. Its been hard knowing that Dad doesn’t have a job, and we can move out of state anytime. And just the school play, choir, school…. Latin 2, and the one year anniversary of Jessie’s death. This week was one of the hardest since I was told that I was moving to Arkansas… I don’t know what I would...
“A womans heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek Him in order to...”
Happily ever after?
maegane:
maddiefay:
Have you ever had a feeling that you would be alone forever?
Maybe its just me, but it seems like everywhere I look I’m the only girl without a boyfriend. That’s not bad at all, I’m just trying to say that I don’t like being alone… I always thought I would marry one day and have kids. No joke! The hardest thing I’m having to deal with is my major in college, because right...
“I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.”
— Philippians 4:13”
Happily ever after?
Have you ever had a feeling that you would be alone forever?
Maybe its just me, but it seems like everywhere I look I’m the only girl without a boyfriend. That’s not bad at all, I’m just trying to say that I don’t like being alone… I always thought I would marry one day and have kids. No joke! The hardest thing I’m having to deal with is my major in college, because...